Creating art has a beautiful way of giving me the ability to self reflect. From the very beginning of the creation of this piece, I used pallet knives and even my bare hands to created a slate like or raw stone perspective. Throughout the process I watched myself create, while the words “clean slate” kept penetrating my mind. My emotions rised from ego to even total frustration, and anger. By this point I took one of my Montana spray cans and forcefully press it against the canvas with gold then black. proudly I stood back and admired my work. Then asked myself what does this even mean to me. That stain was all I could focus on, which reminded me of my experiences of making poor decisions. The slate like texture behind the stain kept telling me “this is your clean slate!” Then I thought of the many times how my life choices created unintentional collateral damage. I would always go back and try to fix my wrongs or ask forgiveness and most times I will receive forgiveness 100%. but knowing how I did people wrong, Led me to avoid them because of my fear of facing reality. I realized that, this was not their reality but, it was my own. I haven’t learned to truly forgive myself. I was always looking back in the past. Although the other party had completely forgot.
This is where artwork give me the ability to self reflect. I learned that it is vital to forgive myself as others have forgiven me. The more I kept my focus on the past, it prevented me from going forward. And also kept me away from the present moment. This moment right now is all I have. What I do with this moment will create my future. Letting go isnt always easy, but the choices I make today will create my reality for tomorrow. So with this experience I want to express and illustrate the importance of allowing ourselves to Move on and move forward. Our minds create our own limitations and reality. But only we have the ability to change the future.