My passion behind this painting came from immense frustration. So one night after work I go to my studio to relieve some pressure on canvas and I couldn’t paint anything but intense darkness and depressing shit. I’ve been going through so much shit I started painting all my canvas black! I hated my art, my situations, the lockdowns, the lack of income. At this moment my insecurities overwhelmed me. I always feel like no matter what I do. I’m always being misunderstood. One of my biggest problems is communicating. I always say the wrong things that end up hurting the people who love me most. For some reason whatever I do my intentions come across the wrong way and it literally kills me. I started drinking to numb my pain. Took the bottle to the head and started literally taking my frustrations out on this canvas. I knew this painting would end up a dub and eventually I’ll paint over it. In my head I was overwhelmed with trying to be a good husband and father knowing that in a blink of an eye everything could change. All I could see at the time was everything stopping me from being what I wanted to be. Then the next day. My wife looks at all of my paintings and she says “wow Steven I love this painting right here” I told her I fucked up on that one and proceeded to show her the other paintings I at least felt more confident in but she couldn’t get over this one. That’s when it came to me. It’s all about perspective. At that moment I had my Epiphany. It’s all about perspective. I had censored my vision to only focus on what I wasn’t able to accomplish rather than what I could actually create. I realized that when you focus on life’s opticals. You miss out on life’s opportunities. This painting was the light going off on my head. Saying create your own reality. Life will bring you SHIT! I can’t let It consume me. I have to focus on the light at the end of the tunnel. Who cares if I don’t have any opportunities to reach that light. Innovative. Create that opportunity. My perspective is going to create my reality! Be different, innovate, and don’t wait for opportunities to knock at your door.